The BIG LOST

it's been awhile i didnt write in my blog. it is ot that i dunt have time or busy but i just dunt have mood (or i can say good mood). everytime i wanna start to write, then i will go blur or blank. tjis early of JUN which is 11 Jun 2008, i received a call from my aunty about 2.30 am. i received a very bad news which is very unacceptable. i receive the news with unstopable cries. so lucky when honey is just next to me.
I Just lost my beloved mum. I cant believe she is gone, gone because God has just call her to rest in peace in other lives. It is still hard to think of this, it is pass 2 week of her lost, i still feel she is around us. she still can do everything for her children. i know she got high-blood, but then there is no sign that she will sleep forever. Before the time, (my dad's story) she still do the house chores, still manage to feed the dogs and do her daily routine in the evening.
I still dont believe till now that she is gone. But i still have faith in God. I believe God is with her. It is just that, my mum is everything. we still have lotsa planning. Both of us planning so many things. But everything seems so dull nowadays. everyone feel the Lost. I dunt have any feeling to plan anything.
My mum is the great person in her lives. She is great in everything she do. People know her as a teacher. We(families) know her as a great cook, as a good listener and she is everything. Every weekend my aunts and uncle will come to our house. Every weekend people will think our house got party but actually it just a gathering. My mum never forget to cook for everyone. She is just nice to everyone. She helps whatever she can, she always makes herself available when she is needed somewhere.
Now i just miss her. Miss her very much.i reaaaaaaaally feel the LOST. Maybe people can see my smiling just like nothing happen, but deep inside me, i feel lost. Deep inside me, i feel alone. My mum is everything. I always try to make her happy. try to fulfil all her dream especially after i started working. I am trying to give whatever her need.

Dear mum,

i know u are gone,

But u will never forgotten,

ur smile, ur kindhearted, ur love,

and everything about u.

we, daddy and all ur children,

will always pray for u.

May ur soul rest in Peace.

We love u

Back to School

Going to school already tomorrow after two weeks holiday.

ahaxxx..havent go anywhere during this holiday but GOOD thing had happened to me.

1. Im engaged to my honey
2. i lose few pounds and hope to lose more...

and oso the not so good thing--->

1. Im broke
2. Oil price and rice up

wish i can go for vacation maybe next holiday. year of 2008 meant alot to me...many good thing come and hope for more Good Things. Thanx God for every single things in my life.

My work havent finish yet. few more papers yet to be done. need to prepare honey and mine cloths. Need to prepare what to teach tomorrow

Friday

i know..few more days will be back to school...I know, i supposed to finish my correction paper.oo nooo. But im so sick of checking their answer or i can say almost no answer. So now im resting after cooking for honey and writing here.
I am happy, our streamyx was OK already. means can update everyday. and can chat everyday. I feel i already have completed life here in Tambunan. I dunt feel dat i am somewhere outta KK. My life now just perfect when i have ASTRO and Streamyx and CAR. But with all of these, i know i can be stucked here in Tambunan for months. and no more social life anymore. But what u can say about social life nowadays?with every single things getting higher, what social can we have?Sumore, im getting married next year, time for me to save. and hope, when all the food price rise, the weight will go down since less food to eat.LOL....i really hope so..
I am still going on with my diet, but this 2 days i ate food that not supposed in my menu but in moderate only. Got flu and makes me sneeze all the time, sometimes got headache and makes me lied on the bed. Gotta continue my work...

Fuel price is increasing AGAIN

It is one hot afternoon on Thursday. Few more days, school will open again. And the routine as a teacher start again. Still dunno what to wear for Teacher's day celebration in our school.huhuhuhuhu..
I got flu. Darn...Things getting worst dis days. Lastnite our PM announce again bout the increasing of petrol price. we went to refill our fuel on the back from Karamunsing and it is damn so many people...everybody wants to refill their fuel tank full before the new price of oil at RM2.70 on midnite. we also join the crowd and lucky we only wait a while. But what's the point?at the end u must refil again with the new price? To avoid all of that the solution is, ride the public transport. If other countries like Japan, Uk etc, their government will encourage them to ride bicycle or going to work walking. How bout us? well, if u say walking or bicycle riding to work/school, then it is impossible. Especially Sabahan. KL have their LRT to help them, but how bout us? With the hot sunny everyday, dust and haze everywhere, can u stand under the roof of bustand wait for the bus? and when u ride on bus, the driver will drive like he is in F1. not to say the dust, the rapist stories here and there and many more.
Sumore, the rice price, food, mee and almost everything is increase...how we gonna live in such situation. For me, 2k of salary is not enough..then how bout the 1k income for a parents with 5 children?
Hope there is no increasing anymore or all of our head will increasing to death oso..

You are What U eat

1st of Jun..It is first day of a month and it is Sunday. Skip church today *tongue*. i wake up early but i just feel lazy to go church. my Brother, terence just went back to Terengganu again and dunno when he will be back again. Today my 4th day meeting my dietician. my diet progress goes smoothly and i just can make myself from eating too much...sometime kantoi but only take 1 bite only. i am used to be super kuat makan but day by day i can control myself from eating too much. and now i manage to make myself eating very few. Last nite i went to movie with my honey and i manage to eat nothing while honey is eating....Yesssshh i shud have big clap for this. we have popcorn for movie and of course i took 3 or four pieces..ekekekkekke...ifff Mariam my coach know this im sure she will cook me...

I remember the phrase, u are what u eat...just imagine i love to eat many kind of food. just try me, im a super addicted to food, and now i only eat jacob hi fibre+ milo O and water. i rid off rice, fui lau asam pedas, mcd and all the heaven's food. =( i love double cheese burger and i imagine i my face is like beef burger with cheese all over my cheek. but not now...i know i eat very little and that is all for detoxification and burning fat process. when i reach my ideal weight and i can eat again what i like but in small amount. whenever i have feeling to eat, i always think if i eat those fatty, creamy and carbohidrat food, i will wear double time double wedding gown.oh nooo... i dunt want look like that.